i really hate being with family, this bond disgusts me a lot. 

i jealousy people with happy family.

i dun have a happy family and i hate the warmth projected by the so called family unit. 

if i dun hv serious illness, please let me be alone when i become older, or only with my spouse. 

i dun think i need friends sometimes. if they need me, i appear. 

i m nothing, and i m useless to the family. 

but family is also my burden. i hate paying money endlessly while i could expect later i am getting old i m so poor and without my family. 

i really dun like others' happy family too. i desire one once but now i just resign.

i hate this. stupid. coldness. careless. and fake smiles. 

投注任何情感 錯的是你

相信任何有關於不變的諾言 錯的是你

接過任何墮下的手勢 錯的是你

誤解任何理性的語言 錯的是你

tu est mon garçon mignon, je suis ta petite sœur.

les grands yeux sont très innocents.  

i m the raw material of World Spirit

be a victim, or  be a person, or be a citizen, or the hero? 

one of the father figures is hegel, he empowered me. if i m not his follower, i m the child of God. 

the realisation of God is within, and thus eternity of the universal.