July 16, 2007

• i feel like more natural in english, this language works as a barrier to prevent me to put on my mask.

  without rhetoric, my words more like a child. as least i think so. months after months, there are depressions surrounding me. i lost many things, i try not to gain anything, i read prono.

  i know the beauty of having a dream like earn more momey, having a family, so far and so on... but i just feel sorry about these values. i want a kid. coz i never a kid anymore.

   

  people might really have to die in age of 25. i m getting out of this range, your dream fading out. but ppl still think they could get them in their hands (我最憎人話要環遊世界,你係成龍?). what a pity. a very common mistake we have got is - if nth have been acheived, your life is useless and empty.

   

  我說四大皆空。血的力量,是生命;而死亡是一切都靜止。

   

  therefore i am very scared, when i see blood in my stairs. but you did not answering me. i feel like not alone, being dump by you. i scared, screamed, like films of Hitchcock. u were sleeping peacefully. my bussiness, my life, you will say.

   

  i act like hyper sometimes, i scream then cried. emotion driven. poor control. tears drop, blood clotted.

  then i suddently remenber the arm of a Manning's cashier, with deep and long cutter wound made by definitely herself. the reality sucks.

   

  i feel nervious. and exhausted on excel sheet.

   

   

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  Recommended: La Vie Sexuelle De Catherine M.

  Her sex dairy, editor of the "Art Press" in Paris

   

  What's your next prono? or book by feminist?

   

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